Switch

“May I hear your words in dark?” From my own house, untied (because, sadly, not despite) and with the switch in plain sight (because, not despite), I ask the distance for permission to turn off the lights. Being ordered to instead of allowed to is my longing;...

Limits

My borders are not my limits. They are my doors. They are to be respected. Let’s play. You ring a bell. Or knock. What’s your style? How subtle are you? How elegant would it be to have the key… to stealthily walk in at night… to watch me being me. I’ll tell you a...

Ange Et Démon

You, Demon, have inflamed nothing but kinky anxiety. You, Angel, have left a simple mantra to be good. Two marks on my soul: a scar of passion and a trail to peace.

Moon

The more I know you the deeper I fall. Flying past innocent Alice I scream to her “Rabbits are okay! But beware of the faun!” Now I know… You could fuck the Moon and whack it off its course. The Earth would be flooded. The apocalypse would come. Please leave me...

Powder

Grind me into clouds of fragrant powder to enswathe your skin.   The world can’t see us anymore except the magnificent dawn behind the clouds colored like a nymph’s thigh.   Don’t miss me after I dissipate. Like any cloud, I wasn’t...

Songs

They say when the student is ready the teacher will appear. So do my songs start appearing before me now. Of course it seems like it is me who finds them: I browse Youtube and Spotify, remembering what else I wanted to check out, hearing tips from friends… But...

Mindfuck

Entwined impossibilities spin the wheel of our role-play. He talks to me not knowing I don’t really talk to him. I’m carried away by a fantasy within a fantasy, but my Observer is really mean. That inner p-zombie of mine is laughing at my silly little girl. –...

Words

Owing to English not being my native language, I probably don’t experience it all the way natives do. A word has a semantic meaning and a sound. I like listening to a sound. One condition: a word needs to be whispered. If you speak it audibly, it will solidify from...

Out of Reach

I will never lean my head back on your shoulder to see the perforated sun winking at us through linden leaves. I will never know what you smell like. I will never see the way bed sheets ripple under your weight. I will never crush a million butterflies by saying...

Trust I’m Not A Guy

This is funny. I’ve already heard from a couple of guys (usually after a productive Kik talk) that they worry whether after ALL THAT I’m not actually a guy having his little perverted fun. Kinksters, come on! You can handle that! Well, firstly, I can actually...

To My Vanilla Friends

Rather than making him furious as well as upsetting myself, shouldn’t I better just rejoice at the birth of a new relationship (for a less lyrical local term, dynamic), a kind that most subs really long for? They are searching, my friends; so many classifieds, so many...

Recently Messed Up

I’d like to say I’m a fresh out of the oven kinkster, but realistically speaking I’m still in the oven. Being simmered by some and grilled by others, I discover new things every day; things about myself and about people. Just like Alice exploring the sides of the well...